ah gong.

ytd afternoon left work early to rush back for prayer session at amk. changed into the attire again, wore socks, clipped on blue cloth, dian xiang, and waited for the prayer session. it was all in hokkien. we went through 4 rounds of praying and walking. the people who talked to the different deities started chanting, calling our names, saying ah gong's house address, chanted lots of things that i don't understand at all, and we had to get to our feet, kneel, bow, stand up, kneel, bow, 4 times. had to walk around ah gong's coffin. the 'ppl' held a paper lattern and led us the way. they said that lattern was to light up the road for ah gong to follow, and we, sons, daughters, grandchildren, follow behind him, meaning to see him off. different prayer session, though the starting is always the sam, got to pray to the deities first, and chant a lot of the same thing, but each session later on talked about different things. i remembered on the third prayer session, when we finished walking behind the lattern, the guy 'talked' to ah gong, telling him, he was at street dono what, that his house would be there. blahblah. sigh. my san gu gu cried a lot when the guy consoled us in a chanting way, telling us as grandchildren what we should do, as his sons and daughters, what they should do, blahblah. san gu gu was the most emotional. there were a few times i couldn't take it, and i of cos sobbed silently.

that very night, we brought all the bags of hell notes that we folded into shapes of yuan bao, along with ah gong's mansion, silver mountain, gold mountain, and all the boxes of jeweleries (of cos all made of paper) out to a place where we were going to burn them all.

to be continued...

too much to say. nightnight.

8:44 AM :) :) :) :)

the angels took ah gong to heaven.

hmm.. my grandpa (paternal) just passed away yesterday afternoon. was shocked by the sms, but i expected he was about to go, though i didn't really expect him to go this soon. went down to amk the very day and attended the whole funeral procession process.

the buddha shrine and all other objects that can reflect were all covered with newspapers and red papers. we first all gathered downstairs and changed into our white shirts, and i had a blue cloth clipped to me. then we kneeled down and prayed, heads down, in front of where his coffin is to be laid. barefooted, we walked to another area and did the same thing. i supposed it's because we have to pray to gods from all sides. not sure. then we climbed 10 stories up to ah gong's house. each holding a joss stick, we kneeled again. all the guys in the family, sons and grandsons only, carried ah gong down 10 stories. the girls all followed behind. passing each storey, a red piece of paper was stuck onto the wall. he was laid into the coffin. we all waited for my san gu gu to rush here. she was unaware of his death, because at that point of time, her phone was not on, spoilt, so was uncontactable. my san yi zhang went to her school to pick her up (she's currenly studying, upgrading herself) , only then she knew the news. she came just in time to see the face of ah gong. she cried on her way there. we all then kneeled and prayed again, and this time, the coffin was sealed.

according to my dad, the last person ah gong saw was his maid, because Yati was the one who took care of him, and i think she was really a good maid lor, who had been attentive to his needs. when ah gong died, she cried a lot. of course la, she had been taking care of ah gong for quite some time, and it's natural for her to feel attached to him. now that he had left for heaven, it's obviously quite unbearable, not only for her, but also for everyone.

when we were all feeling so upset, one of my aunts said she cried because her job's lost. i felt like slapping her at that moment. i mean, how can she say that. please la, everyone's crying because ah gong just passed away, and then you were there saying all these.

from what i know, ah gong died peacefully. though he panted quite a bit before his breath stopped, he still left quietly. ah gong knew he was dying, so his last few words before his days ended was to instruct my uncles to let his old neighbour help him take care of his funeral.

sigh. i mean it is definitely quite scary to know that your days are limited, if it's me, i won't know what to do man.

ah gong left, we shouldn't be sad. it's part of nature that it will end when there is a start, and whats more, he has led a good life, his sons and grandchildren have been quite achieving, so we should feel happy for him that he left with no regrets.

but of cos, it's easier said than done. this is my first time that someone has left me. i still do feel the heart pain. :(

7:19 PM :) :) :) :)

brief.

one week's holiday is really more than enough. hahah. a break that i really appreciate. my piano teacher advised me to go on a holiday. go somewhere. hmm.. but where?! somewhere. ahha. once this 8-months break is over, no more such long holiday.

i'm actually quite scared to put my first choice as NIE. i dono what's going to happen in future, if my interest will still be there.. but it's ok, i think i will give it a try. i really hope i get to teach PE.

going to try xinli's food again this coming monday! he's going to cook aglio olio. dessert- cheesecake. yum.

gona watch step up2 with my sis ltr. yes. yay.

12:16 AM :) :) :) :)

A level results came out ytd, ppl cried hard. some ppl's results were totally the opposite of what they have always been getting for tests, some ppl's were better. mine was better than expected, so ya, i'm HAPPY! heehee. ok..

now i'm just stuck at a crossroad. actually my heart has been quite set on NIE alr, but many ppl have been telling me that i should get a degree first before going NIE. but what other courses can i go to? argh. i'm so stuck now. seriously.

hahah. credits:

1. everyone who has encouraged me during my 2 years in jc.
2. esp to mrs and miss lye and miss hew, without them, it's not possible for me to achieve an A for art.
3. to all my friends who have tutored me, coached me, helped me in my studies; who have been by my side.
4. to my other subject teachers who have never given up on me. miss teo! ms lim! mr seah! mr khoo! mr victor and ms audrey too- for making PE lessons ever so fun.
5. to 0608, AEP, soccer, RCHN, I love all the time spent with yall! whee.

we can finally move on with life. be it good results or bad results, we now know what we want to do. JIAYOU!

6:52 AM :) :) :) :)

update

last week strained my shin muscle. it was super painful when i walked.

1 mar- YDC's 2nd anniversary! launch of Blood Buddy Connection. helped full day. saw petrina and her guy i think.

sunday, went swimming. i must train hard to be able to swim 25meters non-stop.

JC1s are having their orientation this week. saw zhiyuan. an OGL. hahah. as expected. he's those loud and cheery person.

i didn know i have to submit my attendance form to Seacare to get my pay. rah rah rah. must must must submit tmr. or else i wont get my pay!!

i thank You for everything.

6:32 AM :) :) :) :)

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